So unfortunatey for us, the little girl that we had as our own for 5 weeks did return to her birth mother on March 18th. I have gotten some occasional updates from them and they seem to be doing very well. Which makes my heart very happy.
We have been back and forth about whether or not to continue the adoption journey. We have talked, prayed, attended counseling (grief – we lost a child), and we feel we should still stay the course.
We briefly listed as an active waiting family a few weeks back, and then quickly went on hold again. We felt like we may have been overwhelmed and stressed with what is going on with the boys (some specialist appointments in June) and acted without fullying processing.
We are excited to be listed as an active waiting family again. We are scared. We are a little hesitant at “the system”. We are disappointed at some of the lack of support we have gotten from others throughout our adoption process.
However, overall, we have been supported and loved on and truly believe that God brought us this far, if He wants this story to be done as is, then He will do so. If not, he will keep writing it. So – we have done our part to open our fragile hearts for His revealing.
James 1:12 says “God will bless you if you don’t give up when your faith is being tested.”
I have it as my phone lock screen as a constant reminder. <3